So lately I have been resenting the college atmosphere. Okay, I love the grad school atmosphere, but something about the younger students bugs me! Don't get me wrong, I am not trying to get on my high horse and say I'm better now that I graduated, but at what point do we focus on the reason we are in school?
Case and point:
I am terribly sick of using the computer lab in the evening when the athletic-type (wouldn't be surprised if they were the athletes of this campus...that's a whole new story) guys are in there together. When I go to the computer lab, I go because I have homework assignments on programs only the school has. I am there to work, and work hard so I can get out of there as soon as possible. Unfortunately, not everyone feels this way. I know this because, silly me, I chose a computer a few spots away from these rowdy guys. While trying desperately to concentrate on the task at hand, I was distracted by these guys who were on facebook looking at pictures of "hot chicks" and rating how hot they were...oh and if they could "score" with them. Oh it gets worse...after about a half hour of that, one of the guys got on the phone to someone else asking about the homework assignment that was due. He was getting all huffy and puffy over the phone, because, apparently, the caller on the other end was not going to give them the completed assignment as agreed upon. When off the phone, we went on and on to his buddies about what a liar the caller was, and he should've never bought him the shot the night before. Apparently the shot at the bar was the payment for this particular homework assignment. Why put such a large investment into something, like school, to cheat your way through it? This type of scenario has happened the last two weeks in our computer lab, with two different sets of guys.
Case and point number 2:
Why do the girls here feel the need to "doll" themselves up?? I guess I have felt pressure from the type of girls who go to school here since I started my freshman year. I know that this materialistic type of girl is everywhere right now, heck I see her every time I open up a magazine, but why do we make others feel inadequate if they don't meet these standards? I have recently become somewhat angry at myself, because I fell to this pressure. My biggest beauty peer pressure vice since starting school has been tanning. I don't know why, but for some reason burning our skin makes us beautiful! I admit that I like how I look better when I am tan, but why?? For this reason alone, I haven't gone tanning since the end of summer last year. So why am I starting to feel like I need to go? The only answer I have to this question is the poor effects of the typical hollywood stereotype portrayed everywhere...particularly in the media. I dare to be different, and have always thought of myself in this way. I hate that I fell for the trap set out by beauty experts whose job is to frame the way society thinks about beauty. Never have I felt more beautiful than I do now. I have made a complete lifestyle change. I will be happy, and I will no longer succumb to shallow standards ever again.
DISCLAIMER: I will avoid tanning beds, however, I will never avoid the beautiful sunshine outside...let it be summer!
Coming soon: Did I mention I chopped all of my hair off?? I will be posting before and after pictures (pre-weight watchers and pre-haircut)!
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Chopped your hair off, cannot wait to see the pictures. I know that the hard work that you have do to change your life style has been fantastic and it shows. I know what you mean about the people that you have observered. It will all come back to haunt them sometime.
When I was watching the Oscars, there were several comments about the those that hit the tanning beds and those that did not. They made much more positive comments about those that did not make it to the tanning beds.
You have no idea what a beautiful person you are inside and outside. Sometimes it is hard to see our ownselves as "pretty". I have see all of the changes in you and as you gain knowledge not only have you changed on the inside but I see changes happening on the outside that are wonderful.
Just keep up what you are doing and I would think that you could go to the campus office and complain about what goes on in the computer lab and how it affects others that are truely trying to work.
Love you
Oh Katie. I know what you mean. I have fallen into the trap as well, but somewhere along the line, I got out!! I fell to the opposite end of the spectrum though. I went from totlaly caring how I looked and always making sure I was priped and primed to almost not even caring what I look like anymore. So - my dear, it is a double-edged sword. We don't want to completely fall for it and give in but at the same time we don't want to be so against it that we just don't care.
I, too, have seen the wonderful changes inside (and outside) of you. You have worked hard to get both and it is very well deserved. You are such a beautiful, intelligent and caring person. Really, I could go on for hours about how great you are but I know you don't need me to.
We love you just how you are and way to go for taking a stand against the tannin beds - they are pretty cancerous anyways!
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